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Adding magnification

Jetlag is a bitch. What does that have to do with magnification? Absolutely nothing. I am in Israel at the moment with work and jetlag joining forces to very thoroughly kick my ass. I have this whole list of prepared topics I want to cover and I find myself sitting and staring at them like an imbecile trying to remember how I planned to address them. Perhaps, I am just having a Biden moment, but I prefer to blame work and jetlag.
Anyway, here is an interesting phenomenon that I only encountered recently: shooters who have no experience with magnification. I do not think it is a very widely spread situation, but it clearly happens since a good number of statements to that effect stood out to me on a few forums and discussion boards recently. Interestingly, a lot of these guys seem to be fairly competent gun guys, they just to be coming into this from a completely different angle that I am used. I am a precision guy at heart and I hunt. Historically, I spend most of my time telling people that out in the real world, very frequently, less is more and you should not overdo magnification. However, there is a ton of people out there, it seems, who come into this from handguns or shotguns or red dot equipped ARs. They have no experience with magnification at all.

Here is a direct quote from a Discord discussion, copied with the permission of the guy who posted it: "I don't have any sort of on-board magnification. I do have some binoculars, but the compact pair seem to be cheap, have poor light transmission, and don't make sense (labels read 20x magnification which is definitely not the case), and the other, more solid pair are bulkier"
Now, to be fair, I have no idea if he has experience with other firearms that do have magnification, but for the sake of the argument let's assume he is a one gun kinda guy. That frequently means that he actually knows how to use it. I'll also make an assumption that he has some sort of a reasonably decent red dot sight already on the gun.
Before we talk about magnification, let's revisit what that magnification is used for:
-increased aiming precision
-improved target identification
-surveillance and observation
The first requires for the magnifying optic to be on the gun.
The latter two can be done with either a weapon mounted optic or a standalone. If it is a weapon mounted optic, you have to be comfortable pointing a gun at thing you may or may not be shooting at. Generally, for the latter two, for civilians like most of us are, I strongly lean toward a standalone optic, for a variety of fairly obvious reasons.
The standalone optic can be either a monocular or a binocular depending on whether you prioritize ease of observation or compactness. If you will be staring through the optic for a long time, a binocular is your best bet. Using two eyes, assuming a decent quality binocular, will usually result in better image quality and lower eye fatigue. However, if you need to take a fairly quick look a monocular might be a more compact option.
The market is not awash in high quality compact monoculars, but most LRFs (Laser RangeFinders) are essentially monoculars with a little extra. I very frequently have my Leica CRF 3500.com with me if I do not think I will spend too much time staring through the optic. It is not cheap, but as far as observation quality goes, it is really a rather nice 7x24 monocular. It also does not hurt to know how far whatever I happen to be looking at really is. It is not cheap, but there are much less expensive LRFs out there. They may not be quite as good optically, but still a lot better than looking around with the naked eye. Leica CRF 3500.com 7x24: https://bit.ly/3aRrmXB
In the lower price ranges, I have had good luck with Vortex Razor and Sig Kilo LRFs, although Athlon's Midas 1 Mile also offers a lot of bang for the buck.
Technically, you can also have a LRF equipped binocular, but most of them are fairly large. The smaller ones Leica's new 32mm Geovids and GPO's 32mm Rangeguide, but I have not tested either. I hear good thing though.
Neither is inexpensive though and if you are looking to stay on a budget, there are several relatively inexpensive binoculars that, to be honest, everyone should have at least one of.
One of things you'll notice as I talk about the binoculars is that they are all of comparatively low magnification. In the original quote above, the gentlemen I quote mentions compact binoculars of 20x magnification, but says that he can's see anything, so he doubts whether they are really 20x. They probably are indeed 20x and that is one of the key reasons he can't see anything useful through them. They are, by definition, also cheap crap of some sort because I am not aware of any reasonable manufacturer who would put their name on a compact 20x binocular. It is not physically possible to make a compact 20x binocular that is good. I could probably come up with a digital one that would sorta work, but even that would not be easy especially due to stabilization concerns. With compact binoculars, you want to keep magnification moderate. It is very hard to handhold a high magnification binocular and light weight makes it even harder. For normal size binoculars, the practical limit for what normal people can handhold is somewhere between 7x and 10x (there are some individual differences). With larger designs and steady hands, you can go up to 12x, but even with full size binoculars at moderate magnifications you will see better off of a tripod. With compact binoculars, I strongly recommend keeping the exit pupil at 4mm or more if possible (exit pupil is objective diameter divided by magnification), which means keeping magnification low. We live in a world where a lot more people buy binoculars than use them, so low power options that do not look very sexy on paper do not sell very well. That is unfortunate because they are very easy to use without taking up too much space. If I am out on a hike or simply want to keep my pack weight down, I usually have a 6x to 7x binocular with me. Historically, it has been a first gen Vortex Viper 6x32. That has been long discontinued and I have added a few more low power options to my collection since that are actually available for purchase. I wish they were available with a ranging reticle of some sort, but unfortunately that is not in the cards. The cheapest option is the Kowa YF porro prism design. It is not the small owing to the porro configuration, but it is lightweight, inexpensive and surprisingly good for the money. Kowa YF 6x30: https://bit.ly/3B0dQeL If you are an infrequent user and you really do not want to spend much money, just get this one. It is not going to get lower than $100. With nice stereoscopic effect and a 5mm exit pupil, it is easily my pick for a budget option.
If you want something with a little less footprint, but good image quality and without sacrificing exit pupil, sticking with Kowa, but stepping up to the 6.5x32 BDII is your best bet: https://bit.ly/3tuBDyT I have been torturing this binocular for a little while now and it has become one of my favourites. It has maintained collimation despite some rather rough treatment and image quality punches well above its weight class.
Lastly, the binocular that lives in my truck is another porro design and this one is from Steiner. The 7x32 Navigator is the individual focus design which, essentially, just means that each barrel is focused individually for your eyes. In practical terms, you just get these focused for some reasonably distant target and never touch the focus adjustments again. It will work just fine from 50 yards or so out to infinity. To inspect something closer, you have to mess with the focus adjustments again, which I dislike doing. That's the disadvantage. The advantage is that there is a lot of depth of field and if I just need to grab a binocular to examine something fairly distant, I do not need to worry about focusing. It is a nice pleasing view with excellent 3D effect due to wider objective separation endemic to porro designs: https://bit.ly/3OcprKQ

Now, let's switch gears a bit and talk about adding weapon-mounted magnification. There are a couple of ways to do it, depending on whether you are looking to augment what you have or replace it. Given my baseline assumption that we are dealing with a competent shooter, it is probably best to not rock the boat. That means adding a magnifier to a red dot sight that is already on there. In principle, we could consider switching to an LPVO or a prismatic and setting up the red dot as an offset or piggybacked sight. However, that requires re-training which is nice to avoid in this case. Also, keep in mind that not all red dot sights play well with magnifiers. Let's assume what he's got there is something perfectly normal and reliable like an Aimpoint Micro or some other good quality enclosed reflex sight.
In principle, one of the better solution for this situation was proposed a long time ago by Aimpoint with their twist mount. Most modern magnifiers are mounted in flip-to-side mounts where, if you want an unadulterated view of the red dot, you just flip the magnifier to the side. It remains attached to the rifle, but you are not looking through it. There are a few different variations on this them out there, like Unity Tactical's FAST mount, but it is all the same basic idea. Aimpoint does offer a flip-to side mount, but they also have a less popular twist mount. With the twist mount, you can quickly remove the magnifier from the gun to use it as a handheld monocular. It has the advantage of being able to look at things without pointing your gun at them and of removing some weight from the gun when you do not need magnification. The downside, of course, is that you have an extra piece to store and that most magnifiers do not have a ton of magnification. Aimpoint's mount is set up for any magnifier that is built in a 30mm tube and all the good quality modern magnifiers are not. I use Aimpoint's 6x magnifier in this fashion, but it is a really expensive option: https://bit.ly/3OkUNyZ
In principle, any modern magnifier that sits in a QD mount can be used like this. Removing it from a rifle and holding it in your hand is a little more cumbersome, but it works. Good options for that are Sig's Juliet4 https://bit.ly/2NKcuhL and Vortex Micro 6x https://bit.ly/3B3CUSs

If you are not looking for something to be used both on the gun and handheld, i.e. add a magnifier in a flip mount and leave it on the rifle, I'd likely sacrifice some magnification to get the smallest available option which, for the time being, is probably Primary Arms' SLx Micro 3x with PEgasus ranging reticle: https://bit.ly/3DnfGFR

What do I personally do? or where would I start? Honestly, I would make sure I have some sort of a standalone monocular or binocular and, since everyone should have a laser rangefinder, I would probably start there.

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Del Norte Black Rifle Match Drone Footage:" Stage 1

Here is what Stage 1 looked like. This was the only stage where I timed out, largely because I fumbled on a mag reload and struggled with a trigger a bit on longer distance offhand shooting. That was a shame because otherwise this was a stage where I could do decently.

The gentleman in the video is Parker Tomasi. He is the owner of a local shooting facility and event center called Legacy Ranch. I think he had the high score on this stage.
https://lrshooting.com/
Parker is a retired Marine Corp officer (Major, I think), a very good shooter and a genuinely pleasant human being. He was in my squad at this match last year.

Drone footage is courtesy of Montana Blaze
https://www.instagram.com/montana.blaze/

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Del Norte Black Rifle Match Drone footage

There was a gentleman with FPV drone getting some footage of every stage.
To my surprise, he just sent the videos out to everyone who shot the match.
Here is me lumbering my way through Stage 2. I'll look through other videos as time allows and upload a few more from other stages with more competent shooters.

Funny thing is that while I knew the drone guy was around, I have no recollection of him flying the drone while I was shooting. Even this minimal amount of stress induces some measure of tunnel vision.

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2026 Del Norte Black Rifle Match Video

Here is the video of the stages we shot. There are two clips for Stage 8. These were a bit tricky to record without a drone, the way the 180 deg zones worked out.

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October 26, 2026

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Structured Barrel AR: More Changes

Well... since 2027 NRL Hunter season is not looking great, I gave up and stopped trying to shoehorn my large frame structured barrel gasser into the 16lbs weight limit.

That produced some very positive results, because now I've got a Tangent 5-25x56 on it and all is right with the world.

While I was at it, I also got the new Element Seeker WMLRF on there which is really growing on me. Getting it sighted in took a grand total of eight minutes and it seems to be staying sighted in through multiple removals from the rail. So far so good. In terms of bang for the buck, Element has a lot to offer and the user interface is easily one of the better ones I have seen on a WMLRF to date.

I tried to adjust the gas system on my structured barrel and managed to completely strip one of the set screws. It is no longer a fully tunable gas block, so I went and swapped out the suppressor to a 30cal model which results in a bit less backpressure than a dedicated 6.5 can I had on there before.

It is ...

Red Dot Sights from Colt

AUSA is the yearly exhibit put on by the Association of the US Army (hence the abbreviation). I stop by for a day or two most years for my dayjob. It is a good place to get an idea of where the trends are going. While everyone talks about drones, counter-drone systems, less idiotically expensive interceptors and other relatively esoteric subjects, there is, as yet, no good replacement for a guy with a gun. That gun has an optic on it.
For a little while, US military was convinced that every rifle and carbine in service is supposed to have an LPVO on it. That is not a bad idea in the grand scheme of things, but an LPVO adds weight and complexity that not every soldier can easily put up with. It is a good idea for SF and other relatively specialized units, but every cook, truck driver and electronics repair technician in the military can get by with a simpler optic.
Simpler optic, in this case, means a red dot sight. Modern red dot sights are capable, relatively affordable and have exceptionally long ...

2026 Del Norte Black Rifle Match

Yesterday was the annual charity match at Del Norte range an hour or so from Albuquerque.  We had fairly ridiculous amounts of water falling from the sky in the last few days and all the unpaves roads leading to the range did not take it well.  Still, it stopped rainign for a day so that we could go shoot.

This is a one gun match where you shoot some combination of paper and steel.  Steel plates are a bit further out.  Paper is all close in.  You are scored based on hits and how fast you run the stage.  I am old, fat and slow, so I am terrible at this, but the match is a lot of fun.

It does not help that I have been so focused on precision last couple of years that I have somewhat neglected the fast stuff.  I should really fix that.  There are some two gun matches at Legacy Ranch (an hour in the other direction from Albuquerque) on a fairly regular basis that I should try for practice.

This year, for shits and giggles, I decided to shoot it with an AK-74 which slowed me down even further, but it was definitely fun.

Last year's match was themed after John Wick movies.  This year, it was a Chuck Norris theme.

While some of the shooters are out to win, since it is a charity match, the atmosphere is very laid back and people do funny things here and there.

For example, one gentleman in my squad dressed as a tactical wizard (I think):

Tactical wizard next to a kilt wearing RO was, I thought, a nice scene.

He had a suppressor enclosed by a Monster can on his AR.  The whole thing was a hoot.

Another gentleman insisted on running stages with the bayonet attached to his AR.  One one of the paper targets that was really close, the ROs let hime bayonet it instead of shooting it.  It was a ncie A-Zone stab.

The carbine I brought for this was an AK74 from Palmetto State Armory https://alnk.to/bEnbIaI with AKML handguard from TDI Arms, DFCO grip, Zhukov stock and Primary Arms PLxC SFP 1-8x24 scope in an RS Regulate mount.  If you are looking for a nucelar bright SFP LPVO with a fiber dot, I will go on the record that at current discounted price, this is the best deal I have seen in a while https://alnk.to/88424vv

As shown, this rifle clocked in at 9.3lbs.  It is definitely not a lightweight, but it was not too heavy either.  I put it through several experiments with different stocks and pic rail dust covers that did not work out well enough for my purposes.  MOst annoyingly, the 1913 stock adaptor kept on getting loose, so I finally slapped Magpul's Zhukov stock on it and went back to the normal AK side mount for the scope.  It is not as slick as I wanted it, but it works.  Another experiment that failed was with getting a suppressor on it.  On this AK-74, the muzzle device is threade donto the side block.  It is not straight enough for a suppressor.  I was getting baffle strikes on a 6mm can.  I coule try a growwly oversized can, I suppose, but I decided to leave it along and put the original muzzle device on.  I still maintain that all guns should be suppressed, but they are not all designed to be suppressed.

In principle, if I wanted to shoot more matches, a longer handguard would go a long way toward helping me drive the gun, but I intentionally decided to run everything as if it has an 11" barrel and a correspondingly short handguard.  I think that muscle memory will translate optimally between different platforms I have.

I will be the first to admit that I may have overscoped this AK a little bit, but on the other hand, given that the scope is pretty light, I do not really see a problem.  At this match, the furthest plates were about 300 yards out, so I appreciated being able to zoom in a little, while on 1x with that bright fiber dot, this scope is fast.

For an AK, this gun has a decent ALG trigger, but having spent the last couple  of years with precision rifles and match triggers, it gave me fits.  It was also very hard to get myself out of the "precision" mode.  I could definitely go faster if my head was not getting in the way.  I think I will do some work on that in the next few weeks.  In the grand scheme of things, 5.56 plining ammo is now cheaper than 5.45x39, but I think I should practice this with different platforms.  I still have some AK specific muscle memory, but I was definitely rusty.

With Wolf 60gr Military Classic ammo launching at 2750fps (with 18fps StDev) the rifle shot groups in the 2MOA to 2.5MOA range standing tripod (I almost never shoot off of a bench any more, so I popped a bag on a tripod and shot off of that) which is plenty good enough for this type of a match.  Intrinsic accuracy of the gun did not get in my way.  However, managing the long spongy trigger pull for longer shots and for offhand shots was a little tricky.  Still, it is my own fault that I neglected practicing with my AKs.  

The match was originally supposed to be eight stages.   I was in quad six, so we shot 6, 7, 8, 1, 2 and 3 before we had to stop.  I have a couple of videos that I am going to look through, stitch together and post.

Just as we were about to shoot stage 4, everyone was told to stop and the range went cold.  Apparently, one of the ROs on a different stage was clearing his handgun (ROs were allowed to have handguns) and shot himself in the hand.  I did not witness it, but that is what I was told.  He was taken to the hospital and seems to be doing OK.  However, our day was done.

It is an unfortunate accident and it sounds like it was self-inflicted.  One of the board memebers from the range went and visited him in the hopsital.  He will need surgery.  Someone also mentioned that this is the second time this gentleman shot himself.  I am not sure what to make of that.  I do not know him personally.  We'll see if there are any further repercussions for the range or for the event moving forward.

There was also a night event (for stages shot with night vision), but I could not participate in that one due to various family obligations.  We are in the middle of a Jewish hoiday of sukkot and my wife already made plans for it.

Watching people bring different guns to this match was very interesting.  Some used ARs on longer stages and a PCC on close range stuff.  It never occurred to me to have multiple guns with me.  One gentleman had what looked like a suppressed PS90 SBR.  A couple of peopl had AKs.  I saw a CZ Scorpion and a B&T SBC9.  I am sure there were a few other unusual choices there, but most people were shooting AR-15s of all sorts.

I have some time to figure out what I will bring next year, but a P320 in a Flux Raider chassis could be an interesting option.

 

 

 

 

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On rash opinions, good questions, bad choices and the art of compromising
and a little bit about Primary Arms PLxC 2.5-20x48 and Vortex Razor Gen3 4-24x44

It has been raining cats and dogs here which is very unusual for Albuquerque and also very welcome.  

Between travel, weather, Jewish holidays and a new virus the kids brought from school, I have not managed to spend any real time at the range.  That is unfortunate since I have a long queue of stuff to test.

All that sitting in various airport lounges did give me a chance to browse through a couple of forums. That is a mix of amusing, educational and disheartening in roughly equal measures.

One thing that drives me up the wall is when someone makes an ironclad absolutist assessment based on a single experience or a single piece of data without applying any critical thinking to either.  Now, we all have our prejudices, but sometimes it is a good idea to step back from those and recalibrate.

For example, there is a guy on the Hide currently sticking his negative opinion on Leica in every other post based on a bad customer service experience with his older Geovid 3200.com  

I have no idea what happened with his Leica interaction, but the way he describes it sounds a bit fishy. It also does not help that I know who that guy is and take it with a little grain of salt a priori.  There might have been some poetic freedoms taken with his account of events.  On the other hand, it is entirely possible that he called Leica CS and pissed someone off there within the first three sentences with his attitude.  Some years ago, he used to say all sorts of interesting things that he later claimed were influenced by late night and alcohol (he had many interesting things to say about me when he learned that I am Jewish and an immigrant and was stupid enough to say it to people who showed me the screenshots).  Be that as it may, even if he was a royal d!ck to the CS people at Leica, they still should have taken care of him and even if he had a bad experience he should still have enough perspective to understand that there is a reason Leica has been in business this long.

Yet, that is not how the world works.  

On a different topic, Leica Geovid MAX is en route, so I'll have some impressions soon.

That diversion aside, I have seen a good number of threads recently where people were looking for crossover scopes, without quite using the term and unsure how to select one.

I figured I'll use the example of two riflescopes I am looking at currently and offer a few different scenarios of why I would choose one over the other in some situations, but not in others.  This goes far beyond a simple: the glass is better here vs there.

Let's start with the spec table.  The two scopes in question are in the second and third columns:

Vortex Razor Gen3 4-24x44 and Primary Arms PLxC 2.5-20x48.

They are within a couple of ounces of each in terms of weight.

PLxC is an inch shorter.

PLxC has a slightly larger objective.

Razor has significantly more elevation adjustment.

Both have 10mrad per turn adjustment.

Here is a question for you: which one has wider field of view?  That is not a trick question, yet the answer depends on how you define it.

If you are talking about FOV on the same magnification, Razor Gen3 is wider (larger Apparent FOV). 

If you are talking about real FOV on the lowest magnification, then PLxC is a good bit wider since it goes down to 2.5x vs the Vortex' 4x.

Here is a different way to tabulate it:

   Real FOV, ft @ 100ydsReal FOV, degApparent FOV, deg
Primary Arms PLxC
2.5-20x48
low2.546.78.822.1
high205.81.122.2
Vortex Razor Gen 3 4-24x44low430.95.923.5
high245.31.024.3

On the same magnification, Razor Gen3 has about 9.5% wider real and apparent FOV.

However, on the lowest magnification, PLxC has  49% wider real FOV.

In which situations is one preferable to the other?

Vortex Razor Gen3 4-24x44 and Primary Arms PLxC 2.5-20x48

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Yom Kippur for a Secular Soviet Jew
Still Here

This may be a little off topic for a “Guns & Optics” website, but I figured you’ll forgive me a few occasional small diversions.  Yom Kippur begins at sundown tonight on September 20, 2026.  It is the Day of Atonement, the most somber day in the Jewish year.  I am not an especially observant Jew.  I grew up in the Soviet Union.  I do not keep a full traditional calendar, and I am not going to pretend otherwise.  I pay attention to a few of the major holidays, but do not make a big deal out of most of them.    

Yom Kippur still matters to me though.  For a long time I could not quite say why since it always looked a little hypocritical.  Left to my own devices, I avoid going to the temple like the plague.  I do not follow most of the ritual parts of Judaism (I definitely do not keep kosher).  Yet, the Day of Atonement matters.  Here is the closest I can get to understanding why.

Yom Kippur is a yearly act of defiance against any power that thinks it sits at the top of the pyramid.  It is a reminder that we get to return to what we are, no matter what the insanity of the year behind us made us do.  The tyrants I grew up under are mostly gone (some have changed business cards, but they are not the same as what they were).  We are still here and only G-d is above us.

What most know about Yom Kippur is the ritual.  Twenty-five hours. No food, no drink, no work if you are keeping it that way.  White clothes.  Long prayers if you go to the temple. A shofar blast when it ends.

Yom means Day.  The meaning of the word kippur is about covering, ransoming, wiping clean.  In the Bible the high priest walked into the holiest Temple sanctuary once a year, offered one goat to God, and sent another into the wilderness with the people’s sins named over it.  The house had to be cleaned so Presence could stay in the middle of a people who make a mess.

The physical Temple is gone. The day is not.

There is an old Talmudic story where Rabbi Yochanan ben Zakai was smuggled out of Jerusalem besieged by the Romans around 70 CE.  He greets Roman general Vespasian outside Jerusalem and predicts that he will become emperor.  Vespasian grants him one favor.  Ben Zakkai asks him “Give me Yavneh and its sages”.  He essentially asked him for a small town and the right to teach.  That became the center of Jewish learning after the Temple was destroyed. The building was gone. Study, prayer, and return were not. No army can burn that down.

For two thousand years after that Yom Kippur has been inward and interpersonal: return, confession, prayer, charity — and the rule that God does not clear what you still owe another human being.

You do not need to be observant to feel the weight of that. You only need to have lived through a year and have the dedication to stop for a day and reflect.

Why a secular Soviet Jew would still care

The Soviet state had a very simple take on the human being. You and everything around you belonged to the Communist Party.  There was no law superior to the regime.  Religion was either backwardness or a security problem.  Jewishness was an entry in your papers and the limit of what you were allowed to do or to be in the Soviet Union: a reason you did not get the job, a university placement or the exit visa.  In the Soviet Union, your ethnicity (Jewish is both religion and ethnicity) was recorded in your identification document.

Yom Kippur refuses the premise of the primacy of the state.

Not with a manifesto, but with a day that does not belong to their calendar.  With a fast the state did not schedule. With the old idea, older than Moscow or Rome or DC, that only God is above us.  Commissars are not.  General secretaries are not.  Whatever the current thing happens to be is not.

I am not religious enough to want to try to unpack “only God is above us” in any sort of a doctrinal sense.  It is still the most accurate sentence I have for this idea that we are all made in G-d’s image and no human is above the other.  There is a limit to what any government, any psychotic year, any burst of collective insanity is allowed to make of you.

The USSR wanted all of us to be state property, yet merely remaining a Jew was already a kind of insubordination.  They did not care about anyone’s individual piety.  That 5th line in the passport was not theological: you were Yevrei (Russian version of Hebrew) whether you kept Shabbat or not.  The state could punish us for that, but it could not quite extinguish what we are.  Tyrannies are not very good at planning for eternity.

In a very strange way, for me, Yom Kippur, in part, is the annual discovery that all the empires of history who promised to outlast us are all gone, yet we are still here.

Return, not performance

The Hebrew word everyone translates as repentance is teshuvah. The root is return.

A year of ordinary life asks you to become a lot of things you did not choose.  Some of that is ordinary adult compromise.  Some of it is moral cowardice.  Some of it is what you do to get through a system that wants everything from you: your speech, your hopes, your dreams, your life, and eventually your children.

Yom Kippur is the moment when you get to shake that year off and return to what you were.

It is not a conversation you have with another human.  Walking back toward what you are when the noise drops: a Jew, a free person, someone whose first loyalty is not to the last demand made on him is a conversation you get to have with G-d and with yourself once a year.  

Maimonides, who would not have been terribly impressed by my marginally existent piety, still defined the work in terms a secular person can use.  Name the act. Feel its weight. Say it. Resolve hard enough that you would be embarrassed to repeat it next Tuesday.  If another person has a name attached to the damage, start there.  Yom Kippur does not atone for what is between you and another person.  It is between you and G-d.

The Soviets were excellent at public confession that was just a performance.  We live in a culture inundated by peformative self-flagellation and that is fluent in other people’s sins and blind to its own.  Modern technology brought us social media that was a boon to both voyeurs and exhibitionists.   This day is the opposite of both.

Most of the people on here are not Jewish.  I assume most of you are either Christian or secular or somewhere in between.   A lot of you are secular in the ordinary American way, which is different from the Soviet way.  Here, you can be secular without buying into the religion of secularism, that is a luxury that was not afforded to us.

Whether Christian or secular, you do not need a metaphysics seminar and you most definitely do not need it from me.  Still, my point here is that once a year, it is not a bad thing to take all the dulling life anesthetics off the table: food, work, social media feed, performance and ask what the year turned you into.  Then ask what you are when that is all stripped off.  Then go figure out how to get back to what you are or what G-d wants you to be rather than what this past year made you.

The traditional greeting in these days is not “Happy Yom Kippur.” It is gmar chatima tova: a good final sealing.

That is probably why I keep this day, why I fast and turn all my electronic gadgets off. Not because I am pretending to be a model Jew.  Because I am still here, and because I refuse to let a year or a state or the feverish pace of life have the last word on what that means.

Gmar chatima tova.

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