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A little while back, I made a conscious decision to shift the bulk ofo political coverage to my substack page. There are a few reasons for that, but the primary one is to keep this one largely oriented toward guns and optics. The idea was to restrict political coverage here to 2A issues.
It is never a clear distinction, but I try.
Another was that the political world is all consuming and I wanted to relegate it to weekends only. Unless there is something truly momentous happening, I try to ignore the world of politics during weekdays and catch up during the weekends. That's why my substack coverage of the Iran war, for example, is restricted to mostly weekly attempts to make sense of the nonsense.
https://darklordofoptics.substack.com/
Of course, I always have a secondary purpose. Having learned my lesson on bans, shadowbans, and outright censorship over the years, if Substack goes totalitarian on me, I can shift what I normally do there to Locals and vice versa. A little paranoia goes a long way.
Going back to the gun related things, some of my long running plans are hitting a little bit of a snag this spring. It looks like I will need to have a minor abdominal surgery sooner than later and I have no idea what the recovery will look like. If all goes well, I will have a rough idea of the timing during this coming week.
That puts my plan to shoot the match in Wyoming in potential jeopardy, but hopefully not.
I was told that the recovery takes about six weeks and that I should avoid strenuous activity while recuperating. I plan to classify shooting an NRL Hunter match as non-strenuous activity and see where that takes me. As long as I am able to hike around a little, I can just shoot everything standing off of a tripod to minimize the probability of stitches coming out.
For the Hunter match in Wyoming, my original plan was to shoot with the same 6.5CM Fix wearing a 7-35x56 Tangent Theta and Hornady's factory 147gr ammo.
For the Hunter match in Virginia in May, I was hoping to test Grayboe's new Core stock, which fits my 6.5PRC Stag Pursuit. However, there is a delay in the manufacturing of the stock, so it won't get here until June.
Perhaps, that will be the one to take to the TRT Sniper match in Montana, although I am going to think about that a little more. If the barrel in my Fix is still alive by then, I might still just stick with it. It might be getting to tis last legs though by summer.
Grayboe has this new generation of stocks they are doing built around their mini-chassis that attracted my attention.
https://www.grayboe.com/products/universal-mini-chassis
While I am very much on the record that I think monoblock receivers are a better idea, the vast majority of the industry for legacy, logistical and logical reasons, runs on conventional barreled actions. I am always looking to see if someone has a better way to accommodate those and Grayboe's idea looks interesting. Essentially, they made a mini-chassis that bolts onto your action and stays there. Then they machine their stocks to match that minichassis perfectly. If you want to switch stocks between different Grayboe models, the mini-chassis stays bolted to the action and you swap the stock seamlessly and allegedly with no zero shifts.
For example, if I want to use my Stag Pursuit in 6.5PRC for a match or two, I can put it into a very solid forged carbon fiber Core stock.
https://www.grayboe.com/products/the-core
If I were to take the same rifle hunting, I can pop it out of the Core stock and put into the much lighter Halo stock.
https://www.grayboe.com/products/grayboe-halo-rifle-stock
Going from forged carbon fiber Core stock to forged fiberglass Halo stock immediately drops the weight by 3 lbs without changing anything else. Switching from a heavy match oriented bipod to light weight hunting ones gives me another two pounds (toughly). In other words, I can shed around five pounds of weight from this rifle by switching stocks and bipods without having to touch the optic.
The other interesting aspect of this approach is that you can use the same stock with different action types. For example, if I get their minichassis for the Pursuit action (R700 pattern) and another for my Tikka T3x, I can seamlessly switch stocks between these two very different actions.
The plan is to use S&B's excellent 3-18x42 FFP Meta on this gun as a crossover: https://eurooptic.sjv.io/DWVxo2
Looking at the timelines, I'll be doing these experiments in the summer.

Another rifle experiment is the structured barrel that I have been talking about a good bit recently. That will likely show up here at around the same time and will initially see use in local matches. When I visited Tacom, in order to see where the heat in that barrel goes, I rapidfired a 10round mag of 6.5CM at a plate around 360 yards away. The picture of the plate is attached. I pressed the trigger as rapidly as I could. The POA never moved off the plate, so it was pretty rapid. The barrel was still barely more than lukewarm and not uncomfortable to touch. Accuracy also seems to be there. The barrel that is going into my 6.5CM upper is currently in cryo. This is going to be really interesting. Structured barrels are expensive. For a fully machined and chambered barrel it seems to be in the ballpark of $2k. However, the barrel life they are seeing is substantially longer than that for conventional high end barrels. hat changes the value proposition. I'll continue digging into it. Given how vibrationally dead it is and how it manages heat, this might be THE right solution for an accurate semi-auto. With boltguns, it is probably a tougher sell for relatively conventional boltguns and calibers, but for larger overbore cartridges that generate a lot of heat, like 300NM, etc it might be a different story.
I am going to start with a large frame AR and go from there. The way they do structured barrels is a seemingly outlandish idea, but now that I have spent some time with them, I am quite enamored with the concept. They do all the machining in house, which is probably a big reason for the cost. On the other hand, they do it very well. I wonder if there is a viable way to scale up and bring the price down, but that's a conversation for another day.

Another experiment I am looking to do at some point is with Outlier's Backdraft system. For background, the guys who were behind Arken started Outlier on the side. Now that the optics part was restructured, they are out of the optics business and in the barrell/chassis/suppressor business.

They are using the volume of a sleeved barrel as a huge expansion chamber for initial sound suppression and for temperature control. The basic principle is very simple. Because the gasses exiting the muzzle do so very rapidly, it is essentially an adiabatic process. If you give it a lot of volume, pressure and temperature have to come down very fast. That potentially allows for tiny suppressors that do not get very hot. The chamber area of the barrel and all that still gets pretty hot. In most ways it is not particularly different from other sleeved barrels aside from using the space between the barrel and the sleeve as an expansion chamber. I've reached out to them. We'll see how it goes.

As an aside, since I assume there is no love lost between the new DNT/Arken and Outlier, now that they are separate companies, I am very curious if they will look to partner with any optics company for their guns. While, I've had a complicated relationship with Arken over the years, I do think that the Backdraft concept in Outlier barrels is very interesting and plan to test it one way or the other.

Switching back to optics, what little shooting I have been able to do lately has been primarily aimed at the MPVO segment, since I want to finish my review of the Element Theos 2-10x42. https://alnk.to/dWfYoIF

My original impressions have not changed: it is an exceptional scope with the only real weaknesses being the weight and the somewhat bulky windage turret that gets a little bit in the way of the offset dot. I have been messing with mounting options and I think now I have it set up just the way I want it. It is an exceptional scope overall.

On the other side of the MPVO range is the Primary Arms 1.5-12x36 that has been the subject of quite a few heated discussions (largely between people who have not seen it, but who am I to judge). https://alnk.to/cSLqvYh

In terms of mag range, size and weight, this is the purest expression of the MPVO idea yet. The downside is that it is intended to be used at distance with reticle holdovers only. I think that is an oversight, but since they designed the scope for easy configuration changes down the line, I hope they will have product line extensions. As is, the scope is light, handy and excellent optically and mechanically. The reticle is pretty easy to use and I got the hang of it, but at distance it is not fast at longer distance. Basically, it is not a reticle for precision guys who want to set up a light weight platform to shoot accurately fairly far away.

Theos 2-10x42 is much better configured for the crowd stepping down from their precision competition rigs to go play.

Primary Arms PLxC 1.5-12x36 is set up for AR guys who have been shooting their LPVOs and finding their limitations at distance. They are now looking to extend the range beyond what they do with LPVOs, but not adapt to what long range guys usually do. They are looking for that same "LPVO" experience, but better on mid/high magnifications. They will love this scope and it is set up for them.

I have a little bit of equity with both of those crowds and I have become rather fond of both Theos and PLxC, but they do have different appeal.

If I want to stretch my AR's legs out to 800 yards, I will go with Theos.

If the distances will stay more moderate and might involve clip-ons and such, I will lean toward the PLxC, especially if I have to carry this thing.

I am going to try to convince Primary Arms to extend the line-up a little bit. I would really like to see a version of this 1.5-12x36 scope with a single turn exposed zero stop turret and a simpler tree reticle so that the scope can be used with reticle holdover at closer distances and with dialing for a bit further out.

Basically, if I could get PLxC 1.5-12x36 with Theos-ish reticle and H6Xi-style elevation turret, I think that would be a perfect MPVO for my purposes.

That wraps it up for today. I'll keep you posted as all these projects move forward.

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Del Norte Black Rifle Match Drone Footage:" Stage 1

Here is what Stage 1 looked like. This was the only stage where I timed out, largely because I fumbled on a mag reload and struggled with a trigger a bit on longer distance offhand shooting. That was a shame because otherwise this was a stage where I could do decently.

The gentleman in the video is Parker Tomasi. He is the owner of a local shooting facility and event center called Legacy Ranch. I think he had the high score on this stage.
https://lrshooting.com/
Parker is a retired Marine Corp officer (Major, I think), a very good shooter and a genuinely pleasant human being. He was in my squad at this match last year.

Drone footage is courtesy of Montana Blaze
https://www.instagram.com/montana.blaze/

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Del Norte Black Rifle Match Drone footage

There was a gentleman with FPV drone getting some footage of every stage.
To my surprise, he just sent the videos out to everyone who shot the match.
Here is me lumbering my way through Stage 2. I'll look through other videos as time allows and upload a few more from other stages with more competent shooters.

Funny thing is that while I knew the drone guy was around, I have no recollection of him flying the drone while I was shooting. Even this minimal amount of stress induces some measure of tunnel vision.

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2026 Del Norte Black Rifle Match Video

Here is the video of the stages we shot. There are two clips for Stage 8. These were a bit tricky to record without a drone, the way the 180 deg zones worked out.

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Ballistic Calculators - bc.Geladen.ch

When you spend as much time as I do testing new products from different brands, you end up using every kind of ballistic calculator app known to man.
I have a grand total of eighteen different apps on my phone that are either dedicated ballistic calculators or branded apps that talk to some sort of hardware and also have a ballistic engine in them.
All the reputable ones more or less match each other for supersonic flight as long as you give them the same inputs. Some are based on enhanced point mass models (Geo, Eagle, AB, etc), some offer significantly more degrees of freedom (4DOF from Hornady and 6DOF from Lapua), some do not specify that. However, with proper inputs most of them work well.
Those are all on the phone and that is what I use when I am out somewhere.
However, when I am home and on the computer, I traditionally used JBM Ballistics through a regular web browser to generate sample ballistic tables. JBM generally gave me the same results, albeit in a format that was very easy for ...

Element Optics Seeker is in the House

I fished the Seeker WMLRF from Element Optics out of the mail yesterday.
I have not made it to the range with it yet and it may take a few days since I am travelling next week.
On the surface of it, the Seeker should do very well, especially given that it is priced at $1150
https://eurooptic.sjv.io/Gb5X7k

I did take a quick look at the industrial design, mount design and user interface. I like what I see. It paired to the Element Ballistic app without any issues, updated the profiles and generally worked like a charm.
The screen and user interface look to be done extremely well. I like it more than the one on the Vortex Impact 4000 I have bene using and on a few others I have had a chance to look at (Tango Innos, Safran, etc).
The button arrangement makes sense. The remote control is hard wired and should stay in place without any issues.

Wind treatment looks to be pretty straightforward, but it will also connect to the Kestrel which I will try at some point (I do not speak Kestrel very well,...

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Third anniversary of October 7th.

Can't believe it has been three years already.

https://darklordofoptics.substack.com/p/three-years

2026 Del Norte Black Rifle Match

Yesterday was the annual charity match at Del Norte range an hour or so from Albuquerque.  We had fairly ridiculous amounts of water falling from the sky in the last few days and all the unpaves roads leading to the range did not take it well.  Still, it stopped rainign for a day so that we could go shoot.

This is a one gun match where you shoot some combination of paper and steel.  Steel plates are a bit further out.  Paper is all close in.  You are scored based on hits and how fast you run the stage.  I am old, fat and slow, so I am terrible at this, but the match is a lot of fun.

It does not help that I have been so focused on precision last couple of years that I have somewhat neglected the fast stuff.  I should really fix that.  There are some two gun matches at Legacy Ranch (an hour in the other direction from Albuquerque) on a fairly regular basis that I should try for practice.

This year, for shits and giggles, I decided to shoot it with an AK-74 which slowed me down even further, but it was definitely fun.

Last year's match was themed after John Wick movies.  This year, it was a Chuck Norris theme.

While some of the shooters are out to win, since it is a charity match, the atmosphere is very laid back and people do funny things here and there.

For example, one gentleman in my squad dressed as a tactical wizard (I think):

Tactical wizard next to a kilt wearing RO was, I thought, a nice scene.

He had a suppressor enclosed by a Monster can on his AR.  The whole thing was a hoot.

Another gentleman insisted on running stages with the bayonet attached to his AR.  One one of the paper targets that was really close, the ROs let hime bayonet it instead of shooting it.  It was a ncie A-Zone stab.

The carbine I brought for this was an AK74 from Palmetto State Armory https://alnk.to/bEnbIaI with AKML handguard from TDI Arms, DFCO grip, Zhukov stock and Primary Arms PLxC SFP 1-8x24 scope in an RS Regulate mount.  If you are looking for a nucelar bright SFP LPVO with a fiber dot, I will go on the record that at current discounted price, this is the best deal I have seen in a while https://alnk.to/88424vv

As shown, this rifle clocked in at 9.3lbs.  It is definitely not a lightweight, but it was not too heavy either.  I put it through several experiments with different stocks and pic rail dust covers that did not work out well enough for my purposes.  MOst annoyingly, the 1913 stock adaptor kept on getting loose, so I finally slapped Magpul's Zhukov stock on it and went back to the normal AK side mount for the scope.  It is not as slick as I wanted it, but it works.  Another experiment that failed was with getting a suppressor on it.  On this AK-74, the muzzle device is threade donto the side block.  It is not straight enough for a suppressor.  I was getting baffle strikes on a 6mm can.  I coule try a growwly oversized can, I suppose, but I decided to leave it along and put the original muzzle device on.  I still maintain that all guns should be suppressed, but they are not all designed to be suppressed.

In principle, if I wanted to shoot more matches, a longer handguard would go a long way toward helping me drive the gun, but I intentionally decided to run everything as if it has an 11" barrel and a correspondingly short handguard.  I think that muscle memory will translate optimally between different platforms I have.

I will be the first to admit that I may have overscoped this AK a little bit, but on the other hand, given that the scope is pretty light, I do not really see a problem.  At this match, the furthest plates were about 300 yards out, so I appreciated being able to zoom in a little, while on 1x with that bright fiber dot, this scope is fast.

For an AK, this gun has a decent ALG trigger, but having spent the last couple  of years with precision rifles and match triggers, it gave me fits.  It was also very hard to get myself out of the "precision" mode.  I could definitely go faster if my head was not getting in the way.  I think I will do some work on that in the next few weeks.  In the grand scheme of things, 5.56 plining ammo is now cheaper than 5.45x39, but I think I should practice this with different platforms.  I still have some AK specific muscle memory, but I was definitely rusty.

With Wolf 60gr Military Classic ammo launching at 2750fps (with 18fps StDev) the rifle shot groups in the 2MOA to 2.5MOA range standing tripod (I almost never shoot off of a bench any more, so I popped a bag on a tripod and shot off of that) which is plenty good enough for this type of a match.  Intrinsic accuracy of the gun did not get in my way.  However, managing the long spongy trigger pull for longer shots and for offhand shots was a little tricky.  Still, it is my own fault that I neglected practicing with my AKs.  

The match was originally supposed to be eight stages.   I was in quad six, so we shot 6, 7, 8, 1, 2 and 3 before we had to stop.  I have a couple of videos that I am going to look through, stitch together and post.

Just as we were about to shoot stage 4, everyone was told to stop and the range went cold.  Apparently, one of the ROs on a different stage was clearing his handgun (ROs were allowed to have handguns) and shot himself in the hand.  I did not witness it, but that is what I was told.  He was taken to the hospital and seems to be doing OK.  However, our day was done.

It is an unfortunate accident and it sounds like it was self-inflicted.  One of the board memebers from the range went and visited him in the hopsital.  He will need surgery.  Someone also mentioned that this is the second time this gentleman shot himself.  I am not sure what to make of that.  I do not know him personally.  We'll see if there are any further repercussions for the range or for the event moving forward.

There was also a night event (for stages shot with night vision), but I could not participate in that one due to various family obligations.  We are in the middle of a Jewish hoiday of sukkot and my wife already made plans for it.

Watching people bring different guns to this match was very interesting.  Some used ARs on longer stages and a PCC on close range stuff.  It never occurred to me to have multiple guns with me.  One gentleman had what looked like a suppressed PS90 SBR.  A couple of peopl had AKs.  I saw a CZ Scorpion and a B&T SBC9.  I am sure there were a few other unusual choices there, but most people were shooting AR-15s of all sorts.

I have some time to figure out what I will bring next year, but a P320 in a Flux Raider chassis could be an interesting option.

 

 

 

 

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On rash opinions, good questions, bad choices and the art of compromising
and a little bit about Primary Arms PLxC 2.5-20x48 and Vortex Razor Gen3 4-24x44

It has been raining cats and dogs here which is very unusual for Albuquerque and also very welcome.  

Between travel, weather, Jewish holidays and a new virus the kids brought from school, I have not managed to spend any real time at the range.  That is unfortunate since I have a long queue of stuff to test.

All that sitting in various airport lounges did give me a chance to browse through a couple of forums. That is a mix of amusing, educational and disheartening in roughly equal measures.

One thing that drives me up the wall is when someone makes an ironclad absolutist assessment based on a single experience or a single piece of data without applying any critical thinking to either.  Now, we all have our prejudices, but sometimes it is a good idea to step back from those and recalibrate.

For example, there is a guy on the Hide currently sticking his negative opinion on Leica in every other post based on a bad customer service experience with his older Geovid 3200.com  

I have no idea what happened with his Leica interaction, but the way he describes it sounds a bit fishy. It also does not help that I know who that guy is and take it with a little grain of salt a priori.  There might have been some poetic freedoms taken with his account of events.  On the other hand, it is entirely possible that he called Leica CS and pissed someone off there within the first three sentences with his attitude.  Some years ago, he used to say all sorts of interesting things that he later claimed were influenced by late night and alcohol (he had many interesting things to say about me when he learned that I am Jewish and an immigrant and was stupid enough to say it to people who showed me the screenshots).  Be that as it may, even if he was a royal d!ck to the CS people at Leica, they still should have taken care of him and even if he had a bad experience he should still have enough perspective to understand that there is a reason Leica has been in business this long.

Yet, that is not how the world works.  

On a different topic, Leica Geovid MAX is en route, so I'll have some impressions soon.

That diversion aside, I have seen a good number of threads recently where people were looking for crossover scopes, without quite using the term and unsure how to select one.

I figured I'll use the example of two riflescopes I am looking at currently and offer a few different scenarios of why I would choose one over the other in some situations, but not in others.  This goes far beyond a simple: the glass is better here vs there.

Let's start with the spec table.  The two scopes in question are in the second and third columns:

Vortex Razor Gen3 4-24x44 and Primary Arms PLxC 2.5-20x48.

They are within a couple of ounces of each in terms of weight.

PLxC is an inch shorter.

PLxC has a slightly larger objective.

Razor has significantly more elevation adjustment.

Both have 10mrad per turn adjustment.

Here is a question for you: which one has wider field of view?  That is not a trick question, yet the answer depends on how you define it.

If you are talking about FOV on the same magnification, Razor Gen3 is wider (larger Apparent FOV). 

If you are talking about real FOV on the lowest magnification, then PLxC is a good bit wider since it goes down to 2.5x vs the Vortex' 4x.

Here is a different way to tabulate it:

   Real FOV, ft @ 100ydsReal FOV, degApparent FOV, deg
Primary Arms PLxC
2.5-20x48
low2.546.78.822.1
high205.81.122.2
Vortex Razor Gen 3 4-24x44low430.95.923.5
high245.31.024.3

On the same magnification, Razor Gen3 has about 9.5% wider real and apparent FOV.

However, on the lowest magnification, PLxC has  49% wider real FOV.

In which situations is one preferable to the other?

Vortex Razor Gen3 4-24x44 and Primary Arms PLxC 2.5-20x48

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Yom Kippur for a Secular Soviet Jew
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This may be a little off topic for a “Guns & Optics” website, but I figured you’ll forgive me a few occasional small diversions.  Yom Kippur begins at sundown tonight on September 20, 2026.  It is the Day of Atonement, the most somber day in the Jewish year.  I am not an especially observant Jew.  I grew up in the Soviet Union.  I do not keep a full traditional calendar, and I am not going to pretend otherwise.  I pay attention to a few of the major holidays, but do not make a big deal out of most of them.    

Yom Kippur still matters to me though.  For a long time I could not quite say why since it always looked a little hypocritical.  Left to my own devices, I avoid going to the temple like the plague.  I do not follow most of the ritual parts of Judaism (I definitely do not keep kosher).  Yet, the Day of Atonement matters.  Here is the closest I can get to understanding why.

Yom Kippur is a yearly act of defiance against any power that thinks it sits at the top of the pyramid.  It is a reminder that we get to return to what we are, no matter what the insanity of the year behind us made us do.  The tyrants I grew up under are mostly gone (some have changed business cards, but they are not the same as what they were).  We are still here and only G-d is above us.

What most know about Yom Kippur is the ritual.  Twenty-five hours. No food, no drink, no work if you are keeping it that way.  White clothes.  Long prayers if you go to the temple. A shofar blast when it ends.

Yom means Day.  The meaning of the word kippur is about covering, ransoming, wiping clean.  In the Bible the high priest walked into the holiest Temple sanctuary once a year, offered one goat to God, and sent another into the wilderness with the people’s sins named over it.  The house had to be cleaned so Presence could stay in the middle of a people who make a mess.

The physical Temple is gone. The day is not.

There is an old Talmudic story where Rabbi Yochanan ben Zakai was smuggled out of Jerusalem besieged by the Romans around 70 CE.  He greets Roman general Vespasian outside Jerusalem and predicts that he will become emperor.  Vespasian grants him one favor.  Ben Zakkai asks him “Give me Yavneh and its sages”.  He essentially asked him for a small town and the right to teach.  That became the center of Jewish learning after the Temple was destroyed. The building was gone. Study, prayer, and return were not. No army can burn that down.

For two thousand years after that Yom Kippur has been inward and interpersonal: return, confession, prayer, charity — and the rule that God does not clear what you still owe another human being.

You do not need to be observant to feel the weight of that. You only need to have lived through a year and have the dedication to stop for a day and reflect.

Why a secular Soviet Jew would still care

The Soviet state had a very simple take on the human being. You and everything around you belonged to the Communist Party.  There was no law superior to the regime.  Religion was either backwardness or a security problem.  Jewishness was an entry in your papers and the limit of what you were allowed to do or to be in the Soviet Union: a reason you did not get the job, a university placement or the exit visa.  In the Soviet Union, your ethnicity (Jewish is both religion and ethnicity) was recorded in your identification document.

Yom Kippur refuses the premise of the primacy of the state.

Not with a manifesto, but with a day that does not belong to their calendar.  With a fast the state did not schedule. With the old idea, older than Moscow or Rome or DC, that only God is above us.  Commissars are not.  General secretaries are not.  Whatever the current thing happens to be is not.

I am not religious enough to want to try to unpack “only God is above us” in any sort of a doctrinal sense.  It is still the most accurate sentence I have for this idea that we are all made in G-d’s image and no human is above the other.  There is a limit to what any government, any psychotic year, any burst of collective insanity is allowed to make of you.

The USSR wanted all of us to be state property, yet merely remaining a Jew was already a kind of insubordination.  They did not care about anyone’s individual piety.  That 5th line in the passport was not theological: you were Yevrei (Russian version of Hebrew) whether you kept Shabbat or not.  The state could punish us for that, but it could not quite extinguish what we are.  Tyrannies are not very good at planning for eternity.

In a very strange way, for me, Yom Kippur, in part, is the annual discovery that all the empires of history who promised to outlast us are all gone, yet we are still here.

Return, not performance

The Hebrew word everyone translates as repentance is teshuvah. The root is return.

A year of ordinary life asks you to become a lot of things you did not choose.  Some of that is ordinary adult compromise.  Some of it is moral cowardice.  Some of it is what you do to get through a system that wants everything from you: your speech, your hopes, your dreams, your life, and eventually your children.

Yom Kippur is the moment when you get to shake that year off and return to what you were.

It is not a conversation you have with another human.  Walking back toward what you are when the noise drops: a Jew, a free person, someone whose first loyalty is not to the last demand made on him is a conversation you get to have with G-d and with yourself once a year.  

Maimonides, who would not have been terribly impressed by my marginally existent piety, still defined the work in terms a secular person can use.  Name the act. Feel its weight. Say it. Resolve hard enough that you would be embarrassed to repeat it next Tuesday.  If another person has a name attached to the damage, start there.  Yom Kippur does not atone for what is between you and another person.  It is between you and G-d.

The Soviets were excellent at public confession that was just a performance.  We live in a culture inundated by peformative self-flagellation and that is fluent in other people’s sins and blind to its own.  Modern technology brought us social media that was a boon to both voyeurs and exhibitionists.   This day is the opposite of both.

Most of the people on here are not Jewish.  I assume most of you are either Christian or secular or somewhere in between.   A lot of you are secular in the ordinary American way, which is different from the Soviet way.  Here, you can be secular without buying into the religion of secularism, that is a luxury that was not afforded to us.

Whether Christian or secular, you do not need a metaphysics seminar and you most definitely do not need it from me.  Still, my point here is that once a year, it is not a bad thing to take all the dulling life anesthetics off the table: food, work, social media feed, performance and ask what the year turned you into.  Then ask what you are when that is all stripped off.  Then go figure out how to get back to what you are or what G-d wants you to be rather than what this past year made you.

The traditional greeting in these days is not “Happy Yom Kippur.” It is gmar chatima tova: a good final sealing.

That is probably why I keep this day, why I fast and turn all my electronic gadgets off. Not because I am pretending to be a model Jew.  Because I am still here, and because I refuse to let a year or a state or the feverish pace of life have the last word on what that means.

Gmar chatima tova.

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